one by one, they embarked on their new chapter of life especially for further studies.

you have no idea how envious i am to hear them speaking about their pursuit of degree.

today, i saw one of my friend's notes for one of her mathematical module and i realized how much i'd loved to be part of the lecture cohord as well.

the irony part about life is, we will always cherish some things only after we lose it.

i always reprimand myself on why did i not work harder to get better results.

i was this close, yet that far to getting myself a place in local university.

i was excited to a new beginning in university & excited to really give it my all in studying.

i really dread to step foot into the working society now although i'm quite elated about my own decision. come what may, i promise to do my best.

given my family background, i would dare to say that i've grown up to be rather independent. i may be unhappy sometimes but i am glad that all of it have shaped me to be what i am now.

i should probably note down my goals within these 5-6 years before i forgot my directions.

• complete my 5-6 years of contract & it determines if it will be my life career.
• clear my tuition fee loan (polytechnic) within the first year of repayment period, before age 22 hopefully.
• i shall do part-time studying when i am 23, giving me 3 years to save up for my own school fees. i should probably get my degree by the time my contract expires.
• allow mum to retire asap like what she wished for, slowly improving her life by subscribing to her favorite Cantonese channel & signing her up for cc activities etc. so much more.
• save up & save up & save up.

i have been considering about starting my own tuition class on Saturday mornings at GLSC, which my boss have offered me. i have gladly came to a decision of accepting it, and i guess i am going to discuss for more details with my boss soon. this means extra allowance/savings for me.

i really hope my friends will stay by me & i won't lose them one by one as we each go on with our own dreams and paths.

well, speaking about dream....

the ambitious me started thinking about my dream of my own tuition centre, about the capital needed to start one. i figured out that it is impossible for me to come up with the capital within these 5-6 years, so the ambitious me told myself that i will give myself another 5 years to work hard & at the same time think hard and plan hard. At age 30, i shall open my own tuition centre... starting small. By age 35, my business should have been stabilized and my mum will be 73 years old by then... she will see my success & be proud of me.

i want my mum to live long to see me being successful.

GAMBATEHHH!