i went down to MOE this morning today and yes, i have put my signature on that contract. i really hope that i am making the right choice and in fact, i'm actually quite excited to my new journey of life. i am really excited to having my own form class, my own desk, my own comfort zone in school as a teacher. *keeps my fingers crossed*
i probably need to raise the level of my confidence because right now, i only have one thought of "what if i can't do well and succeed like what i'm expecting of myself?" instead of "i'm gonna be fine & excel in this area. who knows, i might stay in this profession for very long!"
i came up with this logic after a month as a student care teacher, a teacher who doesn't scold is like a bird with injured wings. therefore, i want to train myself to be more firm and authoritative towards my students. i am going to conquer my students when i start teaching in primary school, with a class of near to perhaps 40 students.
my only main worry is Science. i seriously hope they do not assign me to teaching Science, i'll be a terrible Science teacher. i can't even handle the science questions that my P3 kids are asking me at the centre, hahaha. i'm a very frank teacher who tell my kids that "you sure you wanna ask me? my science is very bad."
actually i miss my own school days, whether it is primary school or secondary school or even ngee ann polytechnic. the wonderful & playful days with my friends... i miss my cliques.
work is making me to lose my life, hardly have any true friends at work since i'm not on good terms with my colleagues. okaye, maybe i'll leave the centre with the kids as my friends! i like my kids. i think im sucha nice teacher that will buy cheap little things for them to make them happy.
oh, have i mentioned how bad i was at handling kids who are crying? i was stunned when a bullying incident can happen after just a few minutes i turned my back away from the class. it happened yesterday, when i left my class and went to attend to a parent who dropped by. After less than 5 minutes, one of my kids was crying because he got bullied by one of the tyrant. i wasn't there to witness the incident so i was lost, i don't know who was telling the truth and who is not. so the attention was brought to my colleague, who handled it pretty well. just like any other teacher, she scolded the tyrant firmly & even yelled at the poor boy who is crying to stop crying. i was pretty lost after that incident and again, it set me reflecting and thinking. i should probably learn to handle such matters because i'm sure bullying incidents are a common thing in school.
although i was quite comforted that the tyrant will sometimes listen to me and apologize in the previous incident i witnessed, no students are bad students actually. they're just plain lazy and playful.
i still have a lot to learn, i know.
i am heading to JB tomorrow!
i have a long shopping list to clear, and i hope i can find cheap pretty things there.
i wanna look for...
- dresses suitable for working
- small cardigan
- heels & flats
- big big pencilcase
- wallet
- cheap stickers for my students
- more!
wish me luck in my shopping trip tomorrow. :D
i did my financial sums just and i realized i do not really have a lot to spend after paying what i need to pay per month. i guess i just have to wait till i clear my study loan before i start planning for further savings for my future dog which might really take a few years.
i want to attend aerobics or kickboxing sessions, i shall wait till i start working and when i have a stable working schedule.
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