Flashbacks

I was watching channel u in which teenagers were talking about their broken families. I had a lot of flashbacks upon listening to their stories. I can't help but to have that hatred in me again, I can never put it down or maybe not that soon. As an educator now, I have kids who are waiting for me to help them & colleagues would often encourage to say that parents will always be your parents so try to understand them. But I failed to do so that way, I felt inferior when I tried to put words that are not from y heart into my mouth. I understood how the child felt ' it is not easy to talk him or her out of it, really. I'm an adult to the kids, I need to be a role model for them and I promise to work hard & set my mindset to the right one. I am still a 'patient' in need of guidance and enlightenment.

I had a lot of flashbacks.

The trips to police stations to file for missing person.

The trips to FeiYue for counselling and financial help.

The trips to granny's place every month for help.

The trips home alone from school when I will wish to reach home with him around.

A lot a lot more.

I have the urge to write my thoughts somewhere when I traced back these awful feelings and memories. I'm feeling awful now, but having pinned it down here... I felt a lil better. Maybe, it will be great if there's a discussion forum formed for groups like us.

Tao responsibility.