*cleans off the webs in this blog*
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I doubt anyone is staying tune to this blog anymore, but i just thought of venting some feelings somewhere yet lazy to pen it all down in words in my diary. so yes, here i am again venting my negative feelings.
The title of this blogpost speaks everything, i did not learn my lesson over certain thing. Despite knowing the huge disappointment will accompany along with the huge anticipation initially, i still foolishly anticipate... for a miracle perhaps, for what i wish for to happen. Considering the past and present, this is perhaps the first time i failed to take another step closer & at least tried to fight for it because i'm afraid. i am unable to advance because i find no good excuse like i used to have. i can only wait till the next time we meet & the whole round of emotions will repeat itself and i always know the ending, which is time & being busy will just flush away everything in my mind.
If a female's instinct is rather accurate, can you prove mine to be accurate as well? My sixth sense is telling me that there is a reason behind it all but I simply can't figure if it is related to a 'who' or 'what'.
i've never ever like these kinds of feelings but it is just weird that it keeps recurring despite knowing the complications & implications it will bring along.
i really miss school life, it gives all the reasons & excuses to behave in a certain way.
i need to act and think as a grown-up in some circumstances, and being a grown-up is tiring.
there is too much to think and worry about, too much to feel for.
hey, i miss you but i want to be over with it just as year 2011 is going to be over too. can i?
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