Direction

Wow, it's been such a long time that i logged into Blogger & everything has changed in here.

Well, i guess i probably always log in only when i'm feeling really down & there is hardly anywhere esle that i can rant on especially when i'm lazy to pen down in my diary. Yeah, blame it on technology that i'm always lazy to write.

Ok, so i have just finally decided on the direction of my life in the next 5 years & i'm going to put my signature on that piece of white paper next Saturday and then no more turning back. Don't worry, i have given serious thoughts about it and i will bear the consequences (if any).

The little juniors, then, have all graduated recently & it goes to show that it's been a year since my own graduation. it also marks my 1 year in the working society. Come to think of it, i hardly had a break. I started my part-time job immediately after graduation & went on to this perm job straight after. This one whole year has also changed my thinkings & mindset by a lot. I have learnt to take on even more responsibilities, especially financially. I have also learnt to be even more independent by myself. Yes... Me, myself & I.

I have also come through the changes of certain friendships, when it really hurt me at some points. I came to figure out that people do change when we take on different paths, & it's sometimes inevitable to just lose it. I've been feeling very upset with how close once we were, to now how unfamiliar we are with each other. Or, it might be just my own weird freaking problem/thinking. It is really sad to how fragile some relationships are when it seemed to be so tough on the outside.

I just want to say to the friends who are still with me now, are truly the ones who will stick by me through thick and thin & we truly understand each other well. So, thank you for being there for me always and in return, i'll always be here for you guys too. :D

Have i mentioned that, i finally found & acknowledged my very own weak spot lately? hahah. This weak spot is probably the weakest part of me, but it can be definitely channeled to my strongest point in future. Currently, it's just something i detest the most & i really wish that it's not part of my character. It's getting me too emotional. I hate to cling onto "hoping for the impossible". Just when will you ever get lost, damn.

On the other hand, i'm really looking forward to mid June when i can finally take the plane (again) with one of my closest buddy. Hongkong, here i come!

I'm also looking very forward to the month of August when I can adapt back to the life of a half-student again. I'm getting all excited to be part of the orientation period/camp where i can meet new people and fun once again. I'm on cloud nine to be able to study again, even though it's just another Diploma cert. Trust me, I will certainly obtain my Degree cert in time to come - by the age of 30 hopefully. Trust me too, I will certainly work towards having my own pet companion - dog!

To gain is to lose, to lose is to gain.
Despite the excitement & all, i still have my worries when i leave my workplace in the month of July.
It's really a mixed bunch of feelings, women...

I hope to move away from social networks like Twitter and Blogger, i wonder if could do it. HAHA.