twenty-fourteen

A. The Misfortunes

A1. I fell sick too many times this year from endless coughs to throat infections to urinary tract infection. I probably visited the doctor the most this year and yea, think of all the money i gave to the doctor.

A2. I failed to get the crossover in NIE. I was, well sort of, devastated. I have sorted out my thoughts and moved on. This is probably better anyway... I am very happy with the path I am stepping and walking along now. I'm fearful yet excited for my part-time undergraduate programme which will commence in about 3 more weeks.

A3. I got scars and more scars. I hate my legs now, idk why but insect bit me and left me the bite marks which never seem to fade away. #reallyuglylegs My right hand was scarred, too, from an accident in malaysia but honestly, I dont hate it as much as my legs. LOL. I am glad for the scars in fact because it's only scratches and scars we got from the accident. We are safe! And hey, I can always boast about my adventurous journey to KL on a bike with a guy friend (then) alone. What's amazing about my scar is that, i see a heart-shaped! ^^

A4. I become even more financially independent and I'm starting to spend more freely than ever. I lost the super-thrifty-me. Sometimes I look back and I am amazed how far I came to be this financially capable. I'm not earning a lot but it is enough and more than ever. #easilycontented

A5. I survived the really difficult time during 10-weeks practicum. I can never forget the insomnias, the midnight oils that I'd burnt, the butterflies that were in my stomach during observations and the expectations that i had for myself. I still rmb my laptop crashed just two days before my observation, i can never forget that breakdown.

A6. I miss my family. With work and many other commitments kicking in, I sometimes do miss my family time at home. It's not only myself, i miss my siblings when they get too busy to be at home too.

A7. Friends come and go. How many came in and how many left me this year? I really dont know, but honestly... i never liked how close friends become distant. We were that close and before we knew it, we cant click well anymore because we are on different paths now. It's really saddening but it part and parcel of our lives too. It teaches us to grow too. True friends are the ones who stay no matter what, anyway.


B. Count the Blessings

B1. Well, I am posted to a brand new school for my final posting. New environment, new faces and new culture. What's the best? Everything is better than the previous two schools that I had been to, i would say. Im really thankful that i'm posted here. The wonderful colleagues are really friendly and helpful to the newbies. The opportunities presented to us are also slowly surfacing.

B2. I was assigned to a sweet class. Every class have issues and I'm glad that my first official form class isnt one with numerous issues. They were a sweet bunch who listens well. I only wished that I can helped them even more but i was limited with the short time I have with them.

B3. Family. My bff told me, "i'm really happy for you and your family. all of you are growing closer now and you all are even having gatherings as and when!" Indeed. I realised the change in my family. Although my brothers are still hardcore gamers, but there are more interactions now. We plan for gatherings and they care. Whats the most amazing thing that happen in 2014 is that, my second bro went shopping alone with my mother. My mum was over the moon that day, i tell you. I'm also happy to hear that too, very. I am extremely happy that 4 of us are grown ups now because we can finally bid farewell to those darker days when we were young. We finally realised the saying, "I wish i can be an adult so that I can work and earn money for the family." Mum finally have it easy and easier now.

B4. My biggest blessing this year is probably, my boyfriend. Just before 2014, I was still very stubborn in getting into a relationship. All the talks about "I dont want a boyfriend" are long over. We've been together for 6 months but come to think of it, we spent practically one whole year together already. He was already with me when the year began. I am really thankful and grateful for this loving boyfriend who is slowly changing me and teaching me to rely. I learnt that it takes more than love to be in a relationship and relationship needs to be maintained. He is my biggest blessing in 2014.

B5. I have many new things. HAHA. Macbook Air. Bed. Chair. Bag. Shoes. There are too many. I have many new memories and experiences too, which should never be forgotten.

B6. Everyone, especially my family, is still healthy after what all of us went through in 2014.

B7. Bali. Kuala Lumpur. Taiwan. Batam. Sunway Lagoon. I am really blessed and thankful for the trips. Money spent on travelling shouldnt be stingy because the happiness and memories are really... indescribable. But then again, we should still be sensible about spending on travelling.

C. twenty fifteen

C1. Part-time undergraduate programme in counselling. Like i said, fearful yet excited. I don't know what's in for me truthfully. I don't know what kind of people will i meet and work with. I don't know what's the workload and expectations like. I don't know if i can handle all the theory-terms in counselling.

C2. New whole experience at work with the youngest as my target audience. The monsters, i call them. I am nervous about taming the monsters but I can't wait to conquer them. They wont be as bad as I expect them to be, i know. I just need to start it right. I'm sure i can.

C3. The year-end meetings made me realise that more opportunities are slowly surfacing. My small boss affirmed my attributes to be a leader yesterday. Today, my other big boss came to me and told me about the new structure about 'managers' which she has put me as one of it, supposedly to be 'under-study' so that i can learn the ropes to be a leader. The talks with the bosses set me thinking like, "waaaa... this is real shit. i am really working for myself now." I'm not the competitive kind to climb up because I would be contented with the present too. My passion is to teach, so why give me more non-teaching duties? However, what do i do with opportunities presented to me? Of course i take it, and I always do the best out of the opportunities presented to me. If they give me the chance to shine, it means that they believe in me and I shouldnt disappoint. Yeah, my style. It's progressive anyway, because it takes time for me to learn. I gotta do this junior mgr role well this year and complete my undergraduate programme. Let's just do my best and see where it takes me to. If i've the capabilities, people will see it and recognise it. If i've no capabilities, it doesnt matter because i'm happy as long as i continue to teach and earn enough to survive.

C4. I want everyone, esp my family, to stay fit and healthy still. Let me be healthy too, please! I have enough of coughs and colds this year. Enough is enough.

C5. No more fitness first. I just hope that I'll be disciplined enough to go exercise on my own, maybe at least at least once a week.

Goodbye 2014, and hello 2015!